My Weakness

My inner voice promises. Hope and optimism overflow. Plans surface. With high expectations, I publically declare. I have what it takes. I will accomplish. I am determined.

Then something happens.

A sudden halt. A disappointment. A fear. Indignation -toward self, toward others. Sadness. Defeat. I get out my shovel. I bury my silly plans. My inner voice admonishes. Confusion riddles my mind as my plans go awry. Reminders embarass.  Feeling unfulfilled and a failure.

Then something happens. 

A disturbance. A shaking of shoulders. A voice outside of myself. Thunder speaks, "Get up! Hear me and listen. Still your inner voice, take charge of your heart. Follow Me. I laid down my life for you. I will show you My plan. It is much greater than anthing you can imagine. 

Then something happens. 

Excitement is born. Burdens are lifted. It's not up to me. I can admit my weakness because He is strong.    He found me when I had given up. He's got this and I get to be a part of it. I have relief. He is for me even when my plans fail. Freedom! All he expects from me is that I simply trust Him -because He is good. So I wait for what He has planned for me day by day knowing He is in control and will accomplish all He intends to accomplish with or without me. 
 

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